Relationship

3rd entry for the year 2007 and this is my 2nd for the day. Was talking to James yesterday and he bring up one thing that sudden trigger me. He thought I was still in the relationship with Wendy still. Well when I told him that I m no longer with Wendy and now single and available. he thought that I was joking. Well, certainly I didnt. The last relationship that I had lasted for 4 years and it was dated back at year 2005 before I went in NTU and me and her broke off.

When asked about why I broke off with her? Didnt I love her anymore? 3rd party come in? I do not know how to tell him one in one shot. Well, the reason that we werent meant to be is simply of the constant quarelling that me and her had that time. I was simply not spending enough quality time with her out and although we were on the phone daily, she told me that the feeling is not the same as in meeting and on the phone. I agreed too.. At that time, I admit that it's my fault also. Alway busy working. Working 7 days a week and only had alternate sun off. Not spending the too much time with her, I do feel very bad. Love her? Definitely yes I do. Both of us at that time felt that we r drifting apart but deep in our heart we still have each other as we have been together for 4 years. No 3rd party manage to come in even though they are a few in between but we managed to keep them out as our heart beat as one.

So why break up beside quarelling? Another reason for breaking up is becos of my mum's opposing to me and her relationship. Initially when we were in a relationship, my mum already object to it and I keep telling myself that one of the day, I will be able to persuade her to accept Wendy. But no matter how hard we try, my mum just can't accept her. All the way, I never let wendy know as I' m afraid she will be very very sad. What i can do is to avoid telling her this and praying for miracle that one of the day, my mum will accept her. But it didnt happened. A relationship without family member's blessing and acceptance is very very difficult and stressful. Until now Wendy still do not know this and I don't intend to tell her.

She hated me for breaking up with up and she say we can't be friend anymore except lover once we decide to break. I do respect her decision cos I know that I have hurt her deeply and I have hurt myself too. After the relationship, I decide that I shall focus on my study first and just keep a lookout for potential and there my mum is asking me to look for on already as she worry I might be single. I tell her time will come when fate bring me and her together.

So when ask what was my requirement in a relationship? Now would be more time for the other party, gd communication and less quarrel, shower her with lots of love and hopefully my family members can accept us. Even if my family member can't accept still, I will still be with her together as she is the one I will be marrying in future and I love her. I think to love is a great thing and if u wanna be in love, u gotta have courage, be brave and daring to try it out. Even though u know that at the end of the day ya family member still object to it. If I really love that person, I will still be with her. I will go temple to pray and I believe that as long as we persist, one day our effort will pay off. If we don't try and walk out a route, there is simply no future for us. So do not be afraid to love..