Back from JB after 3 days and 2 nite stay..

I m finally back after a 3 days and 2 nite stay in JB at my gd sec sch buddy Fwu Lin hse. The purpose of going in for these 3 days r very simple. It is to attend his ROM and yes, he is finally getting to marry, to marry the gal whom he loves and been together for 2 years.

As his buddy, I m really happy for him. And these fews day there, enjoy is what I can say. hehe.. However things were not smoothly yesterday between the 2 of them. I grab them, sit down at a cafe and I get each of them to say their difficulties and clear their misunderstanding and its work. Injitially I do not wanted to prop too much into their problem as every family has its own story but I realised that something was not so right. Knowing upon that they will be going to be official ROm today, I have to care. Lots of problems are being brought up for discussion during the few hours and I still think communication is the best to solve all things.

As for the content, I shall not blog much and now they r a happy couple. Will be going for my IA tomo le and its a 110 days attachment wor. Also coming up are more and yes more activities.. Hehe.. Rain season is over and should be able to have more activity and cool.. ait for my call. haha... Stay at malaysia was great...

Relationship

3rd entry for the year 2007 and this is my 2nd for the day. Was talking to James yesterday and he bring up one thing that sudden trigger me. He thought I was still in the relationship with Wendy still. Well when I told him that I m no longer with Wendy and now single and available. he thought that I was joking. Well, certainly I didnt. The last relationship that I had lasted for 4 years and it was dated back at year 2005 before I went in NTU and me and her broke off.

When asked about why I broke off with her? Didnt I love her anymore? 3rd party come in? I do not know how to tell him one in one shot. Well, the reason that we werent meant to be is simply of the constant quarelling that me and her had that time. I was simply not spending enough quality time with her out and although we were on the phone daily, she told me that the feeling is not the same as in meeting and on the phone. I agreed too.. At that time, I admit that it's my fault also. Alway busy working. Working 7 days a week and only had alternate sun off. Not spending the too much time with her, I do feel very bad. Love her? Definitely yes I do. Both of us at that time felt that we r drifting apart but deep in our heart we still have each other as we have been together for 4 years. No 3rd party manage to come in even though they are a few in between but we managed to keep them out as our heart beat as one.

So why break up beside quarelling? Another reason for breaking up is becos of my mum's opposing to me and her relationship. Initially when we were in a relationship, my mum already object to it and I keep telling myself that one of the day, I will be able to persuade her to accept Wendy. But no matter how hard we try, my mum just can't accept her. All the way, I never let wendy know as I' m afraid she will be very very sad. What i can do is to avoid telling her this and praying for miracle that one of the day, my mum will accept her. But it didnt happened. A relationship without family member's blessing and acceptance is very very difficult and stressful. Until now Wendy still do not know this and I don't intend to tell her.

She hated me for breaking up with up and she say we can't be friend anymore except lover once we decide to break. I do respect her decision cos I know that I have hurt her deeply and I have hurt myself too. After the relationship, I decide that I shall focus on my study first and just keep a lookout for potential and there my mum is asking me to look for on already as she worry I might be single. I tell her time will come when fate bring me and her together.

So when ask what was my requirement in a relationship? Now would be more time for the other party, gd communication and less quarrel, shower her with lots of love and hopefully my family members can accept us. Even if my family member can't accept still, I will still be with her together as she is the one I will be marrying in future and I love her. I think to love is a great thing and if u wanna be in love, u gotta have courage, be brave and daring to try it out. Even though u know that at the end of the day ya family member still object to it. If I really love that person, I will still be with her. I will go temple to pray and I believe that as long as we persist, one day our effort will pay off. If we don't try and walk out a route, there is simply no future for us. So do not be afraid to love..

Character

Yesterday was having dinner with Pay, Hsien and Peifang. We were talking on a various topic, on each other life and there was one particular topic in which we talk about guys and girls. Pay was saying that some people don't look nice at the first glance but as the time goes by, she is able to accept the look of the person and in fact it will get better. She say I belong to one of them. Haha.. Mean I m ugly wor?

And he say that guy don't look good also nevermind but mouth must be good. If both also don't have he will won himself nothing. I think so too. Hehe.. Then she was mentioning that I m the sort of person who is down to earth and will treat different people differently. Mean that I will used different approach talking to different type of people. Well, I m quite agree on this ba. Cos not all people can talk joke de mah, I can't be trying to be funny to everyone ba. Some people just can't take it so in front of them, my jovial and more happy side won't be able to come out. But for those "wild" person, I m sure u know who u r. I m sure u r able to see another side of me. Well, I do have some of the character that is common to all de. Afterall I m not a "Bian She Long" which can chang its colour according to its different environment. I m sure every one of u r still able to see my common to all character. Some of the differences are in front of some of you, i might be able to crack so joke, "cold" jokes and in front of some of you, I might appear more serious a bit and less joke as I know u r those more serious de type.

In front of some of you, I might be more talkative, I talk talk n talk cos if i dun talk, everyone is so quiet and some of you say you r used to me making noise le. If I keep quiet suddenly, u all won't be used to it de. For some of you whom talk and speak more, I will not speak as much as possible de mah. Listening to you is great and if I continue to talk and u also talk then hor who will listen ley? hehe.. Well, afterall I think I m not the sort of person whom is hard to understand ba. I m open to everything and I speak freely. If I m not happy, I will definitely voice out ba instead of keeping it to myself. Only at one or two occasion, I chose to keep quiet cos I think that by saying all the unhappy things out at that time will not be pleasing and hurting to some of you. of course, your feeling is taken into consideration by me. As for promises, I will try to keep all my promises and I won't be able to make any more confirmation on any event if i m not 100% sure that I m able to attend the event or meet you all. I know that once promises have been made, we ought to carry out as promise, this is to prevent hurting the other parties.

And I have learn to keep my promises. So next time when you asked me to attend certain event and I didn't promise you immediately. Don't think that I m rejecting you. Its that I might need some time or I have other things on that day. Not that I don't wanna meet u wor. After all, I do treat every of you dearly and each of you really makes an important part in my life. Every of you have been with me at different stages of life. The moments that we shared together, no matter is sad de, happy de, I will definitely remember it in my heart de. I will rem more of the happy one that we have spent together instead of the sad one. Afterall, happy memory are there for us to keep in our heart forever.

Lastly, just wanna tell each of you that I treasure and cherish each of you. No matter at which part of the world, all of you will have a room in my heart and all of you will be fondly remember by me. Hehe..

New Year 2007

Have been resting at home for the past 3 days. No going out. Pure resting at home. Never go for any celebration nor anything. Will be going out today. The last day of resting. Hehe.. Well, these few days have been watching EPl at home. Disappointment is what I can say. West Ham united totally can't playu football, can't pass, can't tackle and most important, can't score. Yesterday wasthe worst match that I have watch. They lost 6-0. My god, kanna thrash by a newly promote team.

As a fan of West Ham United, my heart is totally shattered..... My wishes for them was hope they will not be releagted to the championship division, even though I feel that they will be relegated given this kind of playing style. Hope for miracles. Next, my first wish for 2007 is that I hope, all my family, friends will have a goodhealth. Hope everything will be smoothly for them. Hope that they get what they wished for my NTU grade. I have yet to get an A for any of my examination module. Hope I can get my first A during the year 2007. Lastly, I hope that I will be able to shed off some weight.

For relationship wise, I will take nature take its course, afterall, I m still studying mah. Won't have much time for the other party. Know that many of you are concerned about my status but I guess I won't be deliberately out there looking for one. hehe.. will stop here le, have a great day...