Photos corrupted

Was happily snapping photos and camera suddenly corrupted. Gosh, some of my pics are gone.. Oh no... Now the time in Doha is 1.38pm. 5 Hours slower than Singapore. Now Singapore office off work le.. Eh, the weather is so hot here. Lots of sand blowing here and there.

Didn't manage to grab hold of any souvenir yet. Well, should go see how later or if not tomorrow. It was a great time here. An eye opener for me. Hehe.. Basically the foods and things here more expensive than Singapore. Hehe.. Should blog about more when I am back with more photos.

Convocation, so wat

I m damn pissed off with my father. Becos of him, I can't take pics with my frenz. Dear frenz, I m so sorry. Wanted to be early to sch to take pic with my frenz and my parents. Asked my dad to come fetch me at 4.30pm from work so I can reach sch a bit earlier to take pics. Then he came at 5pm.The excuse he gave was that his frenz say go sch so early also no use, sit there nothing to do. Never even consider my feelings. Damn piss off. If I know earlier, I won't ask him go. Reach sch 5.20pm le. Only manage to see a few frenz and I took only 1 pic with Zhixiang. Then rush into convo.

After the convo which ends at 8pm, I wanted to have a great dinner with parents and wanted to take some pic but my dad say he wanna go rush back office join his frenz for buffet. Damn pissed off. I should have stay with my frenz and dun follow his car back. My mum wanted to eat the food at sch also and becos of my dad's eagerness to meet his frenz at Yishun area, we went off so quickly. Never get to see any of my frenz and take any single pic. I really have nothing to say and is damn damn piss..

Next Monday going Dubai le, will only be back on Friday.. Everything seem very rushing..

Just Back

First time I wanna do is to thanks my " shi fu" Mr Goh Kian Lee and his wife for visiting my blog.. Hehe.. " Shi Fu" you say I never update my blog now I update le. Hehe.. Thanks for your guidance for these past 2 months. It's been a great pleasure to work with you and share lots of stuffs and learning a lot from you. You have really given me lots of encouragement and support all these while.

I m still awake this time is becos I just back from outside. Shopping with my sisters, Juan and Hsien. Wah, really crazy today.We bought quite a lots of stuff. I finally get a suit from G2000. Now having great sale lehz. 50% off male and female shirt, suit, pants and skirt. Got UOB debit and credit hor, additional 10% lehz. My $200 suit only cos me $90. Promotion till 27 July. Those reading this blog, if you need something, quick go grab. Don't forget to bring ya UOB card along wor.Just try out gown. Tomo gotta attend the convo with my parents. Wanna take leave de but morning got project meeting so have to attend. Decided not to take. Maybe year end then take leave go somewhere stroll stroll.

Sleepy le, got to go le.. Fri le.. Woo hoo..

Busy Weekend

Went to Jin hse yesterday. Play Wii at her house with Sing and Ling. Eat steamboat too. Now can feel the effect of shoulder ache. Hehe.. Went KTV with Zhixiang, Seng and Cecilia just now and I enjoy it. Been to KTV for consecutive 3 weeks le. KTV is my interest and I dun mind every week go also.. Hehe..

Tired le, going to sleep soon le. Think work again tomorrow. Sian. Nitez

Just Back

Just back quite while. Met up with Justina just now. Have dinner and we chat and eat. Took us 1 hours plus to finish. Then walk walk mah. C watch already 10 plus le. So decided to make my way home.

Was quite tired today so later supper session with Juan and Hsien was cancelled cos I couldnt make it. Tiring day today. Gotta sleep le.. ZZZZZZZ

Reunion after 2 years

Met up with Jason today. Last met him 2 years here. Hehe.. This time he was here to check on status of the server room at Intevac. My ex company where I work part time during the holiday. he say he enjoy my company when he's in singapore and I really make his day. Really feel appreciated by what he say.

He is like a younger brother to me. He treated me dinner at Ichiban sushi. Wah, his chop sticks skill is gd. Haha.. Ate le, he say tired so I send him to cab stand and he went back hotel. Fri going back le. All the best to u k Jason. See you in September in Singapore again. Then go home after meet him, meet up with mum go shopping. Haha..

As for work, nothing much today. Met up with Ah Chui to discuss on a water project. Need to complete in 3 weeks. A bit of dunno how to start. Keke.. Beside these, nothing much le..

Tired le.. go sleep soon. Nitez..

Tree Photo

Today quite tiring day. Sweat a lot. Been to site to take photo of the tree. Hehe.. Take quite a number but mah not all yet. Have to go down again. See which day ba. Tired.. Hehe.. Sprained my neck yesterday morning. Damn pain.

Now still pain.. Hehe.. Couldnt sleep well le.. Going for a breather later as the breeze is so nice tonite.. Hoho... Gotta enjoy the night seeing stars and the breeze. So carefree..

Back From Movie

Headed straight to west mall after my work today. Went to catch the movie " Chi Bi Part 1". Quite nice lehz. 2 hours plus movie. However still got part 2 wor. The most impt part is all in part 2, where using fire to burn all the vessels. hehe..

Wanted to use OCBC debit to purchase the tixs as I thought got discount but mah dun have. Hehe.. 4 of us went. Me, Kechang, Zhenxi and Jianxiong. 6.25pm de show. We had dinner at 6.15pm after we purchased our tixs. Was so so rush. haha.. I was yawning during the movie. Haha.. Tired ba. Monday lehz.. Anyway, today still okie. Haha.. Ah chui suddenly ask me help him do lots of stuffs thru email. There goes my tomo as it will be a very very busy de day in the morning.

Have to go take photographs of many trees at a site. Gosh, no one to help. Maybe can go on thur or fri, bring singlet go change. The site is at Buona Vista. Hehe.. Sort of sleepy cos yesterday nite mah never sleep properly, sprain my neck le. Hehe... After this m going to sleep soon. So so tired.. Nitez..

Rainy Nite

It's quite late le and I am not home yet. Now at Juan's house. Wanted to go home de but hor heavy rain. Went to causeway point crystal jade to get some bread for my didi as he say no bfk for tomo morn to eat. Buy le then meet Juan for coffee session.

Talk talk and talk until forgot that it's time to go home. When I was about to go home, it rain heavily. Wanted to take umbrella to go home but rain was quite heavy and windy. Scared bread kanna rain. Hehe... So decided to come up her house to sit a while to wait rain smaller a while before setting home. Then decided to blog a bit. Haha..

Basically nothing much today. Was resting at home the whole day. Shiok feeling. Every sat will try go out enjoy a bit and sun will try rest at home ba. This arrangement is pretty gd I suppose. Will be what I m looking for. Working in a few hours time le.. Sianz lehz.. Haha..

Basically I m trying to find back my own self le. I m sure as the days go by, I will get better and back to original. Thanks all my goodie frenz for being here with me for these period, helping me to get back to my original self. Without you all, I wouldn't be able to find back my feet so fast.

I should try not to think so much and I will not keep blaming myself for all those past issues and things that has already happen. No use crying over spill milk ba. Look forward is what I wanna do now. Jiayou to myself and to those who haven't find back themselves.

KTV

Juz back from KTV session and a dinner at carl junior with aud and jin. Sang lots of songs and lots of sad songs I sang and one song that really caught my mind is "Tian Tian Xiang Ni". This lyric is very special to me cos it's her msn de topic. I really like this song and its lyric. They are meaningful and really good.

After ktv, we walked to Marina Shopping Centre for dinner. On our way, we saw fireworks. It's the fire works from the marina there. I really wish she was beside me to enjoy the lovely view with me but I know is not possible le. Then mah proceed to dinner. After that mah jiu home le. This is how I spend my sat.

Now going to do dad's work. Sun coming soon le. A day more to rest b4 start work.

4D day

It's weekend and also the 4D day. haha.. Have u bet? Can bet but not too much ba. A few dollar of investment will be enough. Applicable to those 18 years and above. Those who is less than 18 years old, disregard my sentences k.

@Home

I m at home after work. Eh, didnt have mood to go out and really a bit tired le. Was online all the way looking at some stuff and thinking through some stuff. Lots of issue I couldn't understand but that's not really very important.

Lots of things dun need reason to explain their occurence. They just occur. I m not sure do u get my meaning anot? Hehe.. Drew up some plan to repay my tuition loan le and thinking of how many credit cards should I get. Don't know which credit card was gd. The purpose of getting credit card was for oversea use for booking of hotels and expenditure, that might be required in for my job in future. Not really gd to bring lots of cash with me.

Now got job to do for dad. Gtg...

Fri @ work

Couldn't surf my blog in company as blogspot.com was marked as an block list of webbie in company network but somehow still can update a bit as blogger.com still okie. MSN and online web messnger/program's all been blocked for the purpose of productivity. Just feel like updating a bit as I have lots of things in my heart. Before that I wanna show u all some pic first. Densification of sand.



This is called vibroflotation method that is used to densify the sand layer below the ground level. Taken at a site at Tuas. I went to the library during my lunch period and I walk arh walk, end up at self improvement section. Pick up a book, stress management and read thru. Look thru some of the pages and find do the questionaire, result was medium stressful. I guess I m not that stressful as I have initially thought I were.

I do have some frenz around me when I m feeling down and stressful and my mum n brother alway provide a listening ear. But what abt her? She does not have close frenz and only can confided in parents. I guess in this case, I m more xinfu than her. She got problem also can't share with much people while I can share with a number of you. I really admire her in her ability to handle things herself. I have alway have some directions in life, that is to be successful in life and have a gd family that can support me. I have alway wanted to settle down a bit earlier and form a family but I never know that I can be so rushing when it come to this matter in the relationship. This has indeed caused her lots of stress as she wanted a carefree relationship and not considering marriage at such an early stage. For this case, I am really sorry for causing her so much stress. I do understand that planning for marriage cannot be done in such an early stage in a relationship as what we wanted might not turned out the way that we wish for.

Lots of things happen within the last few weeks and when I look and think back, it's really quite frightening that lots of things that shouldnt have happen have happen. I regret all my actions and the ways of dealing and handling with the situations. I wish that times can be turned back so I can handle or try to prevent these things from happening. However, it's not possible and now I can only look forward. I just hope that time can heal the wounds inflicted and I really hope she can be well and be happy. I know that this is the only way she can c wat I wanna say. I do hope that all of you can have a great weekend.

Problems...

It seem that my life's been in a mess for these 2 years. Everything's been so so messy. Parent's relationship is strained. My own relationship also strained. Job's strained. Everything seem to be in tension. I need to relieve my tension, tell people, people feel tension. So I decided not to say much to make everyone better.

I m at my wit's end. Everytime got think of solution but it dun seem to work. I think I need to go far far away to get back myself and avoid this messy world, messy people and messy life.

I have fought very hard to try get wat I wanted. Some manage to get and some slip away. This is LIFE... Happy times r alway so short, very short. I knew that many of u have tried ya best to cheer me up and so. Thanks very much. I will be thinking of wat I want for these while. Meanwhile, I dun really feel like speaking very much and meet up very much. Appointments I have made, I will go ahead as planned. After that I will not make any appointment to meet up for these while.. After I m done with myself, I will then meet up.. Need some time to cool down. Hope u all can understand.

Shocked.

Got a shock this morning when I c Dr Chui in my office. He is joining the same company as me and he will be my colleague. For those who do not know who Dr Chui is, he is my NTU lecturer. Teaches me Environmental Engineering when I was in year 2. Never expect he will be my colleague and I will be working on a water project with him.

I went back NTU to buy my gown and collect transcript le. Saw lots of frenz and of course I miss her. The moment I stepped into NTU, I really feel like crying but I saw my frenz and I held back my tears. Had lots of fun moment there studying and also with her. I really hope that she dun hate me.Afterall, damages have been done to her and I hope that as time progresses, she will be less hurt. I m not feeling any good either.

Convo this July 25th and my parents are coming. Just hope that they wouldn't feel bored by the event as it starts at 6pm in the afternoon. Shall c whether I can take some pic with them. Now looking for studio to go take family pics. Havent decided which one to go. Shall go ask the price in these few days ba.

Thank You

I would like to thank you for giving me such a memorable 4 months. It has been the most happiest moment of my life. My character of eagerness of wanting to do things quickly and wanting to get things right whenever I think there's problem have indeed given u lots of stress. I suppose this is my character and I have take note in this and will be not be rushing in whatever I do in future.

Currently, I m taking time to calm down and been talking to my counsellors to reflect my behaviours, actions and seeking advices on how to improve my own life and people's life around me. I think there is no wrong or right in the relationship. It's suitability of character and the degree of compromise that can be reach. Persons with similar character would need less compromise, where as people with huge difference will need lots of compromise to make things work. Quarrels and Arguments at this stage is not a bad thing as we can see through our differences and from here we can know each other better. To be in a stage of comfort and not having any difference and discovering the problems late can be very damaging. Differences and problems discovered early will more or less give us time to react and solve to ensure these kinds of problem will not happen in future.

Another most important factor to have a long relationship is be ourselves. Often, we want each other to be happy and we try very hard to please each other very hard in order to see them happy. There's a limit of what we can do. Overdoing it will hurt ourselves. Other party will be happy but not us. Accumulating these unhappiness in our heart is really very tiring and over time we will explode. Just like what we have. Eventually we become not ourselves and gradually we feel stress and very xinku, tired and dun feel like seeing and talking to each other.

Communication is very important. It got to be 2 way. One way is not enough. I know you have try your best to communicate with me and sometimes, I never manage to absorb things in. I have say I understood and will do de but my eagerness to do things quickly pin me down. I am the sort of person who need assurance. Sometime if I think I never get them, it will make me feel insecure then I will imagine and think too much. Thinking too much at times can be damaging. I never use to think so much before in past relationship. Perhap, I m trying to hard to keep this relationship sweet, good and lasting, I tend to think so much. I get to understand that in order to cultivate a gd relationship is the same of growing a pot of plant. I need time, effort, suitable and right amount of fertilizer for it to grow healthy. In this relationship, I think I have put in too much water, fertilizer hoping it will grow fast. I just think of wanting relationship to grow but I never pay attention to substantial time and the right amount of fertilizer is required for relationship to bloom.

Afterall, time will heal our wound and we will become a better person and know what we want as time progress.